It’s Almost Home..

I am down to my last two days of work and in no time, I’ll be off to Calgary to spend some time with my sister before I’ll head to the Philippines for a month-long holiday.. Honestly, I can not explain the emotion I am having right now.. Working four straight years seem to be fast, but looking at how things and people changed, I am anxious to go back to experience another sojourn in my homeland..

My body temperature is rising.. As a matter of fact, before inking this blog, I was uncomfortably sitting at 37.6 degree Celsius.. I wanna vommit.. I feel my muscle tingling with excitement and anxiety combined.. I’ve got all my papers ready and all i wanted to do now is to be on the plane and enjoy a 15-hour flight back home..

Lots of things happened for the last three years, I lose mom, and some other people I’ve valued and loved.. I’ve had many relationships that started so well and ended unexpectedly because of my personal fear to take responsibilities seriously.. I have been a casa nova for years, and my playful days are over..

Now I am 30 and I am going home engaged, I’d like to think that I am now a better and stronger man, more courageous to face and knock off my fears.. Now, I’d say I am more confident rather than conceited.. While I have hard time dealing with my frustrations, failures and loses in the past, today, I’ve learned the values and lessons of down times.. I was humbled by my defeats.. No valueable lesson can be learned the easy way.. Life has been and will always be a test of strenght, mental power and spirituality.. Faith is what I am living..

The past three years has prepared me to brave and survive harsh weathers.. The passing of my mom is my biggest lose.. But she never died in vain.. Like how she braved and fought her own battle, I will also be a warrior not only with physical strenght but most of all, of love..
Every minute that counts makes my heart pound faster and faster.. One thing for sure, my heart knows its way home..